We at Healthy Minds for Better Lives, Inc. are trying to bring awareness and education about addictions, and publicly talking about it as we feel that it is the elephant in the room that no one seems to want to talk about. I've yet to meet anyone who disagreed with me that addictions are not good, and that many lives are destroyed from it. There are terribly sad stories all around us, and maybe you know of some, in which it has robbed someone of their lives, maybe not in death but in quality of life. More and more comes into our communities, and it seems to be a socially acceptable thing to harm oneself, and pay good money to do it!
Here is the real question, tho, that really haunts us: Why do we keep going back to things that we know are not good for us? Why can't we just say no?
I've been exploring this, and trying to understand it better. While our focus is on addictions that impair the mind, and cause poor judgment and thus poor choices that have real consequences, drugs, alcohol and pornography are not the only addictions that exist. I can make the argument that obesity is an addiction for some. I struggle with my weight, and have been keeping a diary to reflect honestly what I'm feeling along this path. My hope is I will find myself on the other side, and be able to help others with my wisdom I have learned, techniques that have helped to overcome, and to also be able to look back and remember how bad I felt so I can rejoice even more when I have won the victory. You can be sure I will document the good feelings I am having once I cross the victory line!
Why am I so sure about it? Because I have done it before. In 2018, I lost 40 pounds in 5 months with Nutrisystem, and kept it off for a year without even trying. I had successfully lost that weight! Gradually most of it has come back, and I understand there are things like insulin resistance and things in our body that fight against us. I know that while I am eating healthy food, it is accompanied by not so healthy food too. I went back and bought Nutrisystem again, and this time failed. My labs have gotten worse. I hate how I look, and it's no fun to dress up because I don't feel good about the way I look. I don't even feel good. I know that I need to "get under my body" so to speak, to be in control, and I understand the benefits of doing so. Being hungry or not hungry has little to do with my eating. Has anyone else felt the same way?
I got to thinking what is behind this? Well, to be honest, I eat because I WANT to eat. It is the lust of the flesh. I need to eat to survive, but that's not how I look at eating. There is a lust that is present. The lust of the eyes comes into play, as food appeals to me. I see the ads, I see the food, and I desire to have it. The pride of life even comes to mind, because in painfully honest assessment of myself, I really don't want anyone telling me what to do, what I can or cannot have, how to eat (as everyone's tastes are different), and I don't want to submit to any particular diet plan. I also don't want anyone shaming me or making me feel guilty, as I do that just fine by myself!
This reminds me of the verse in 1 John 2:16: "For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, is not of the Father, but is of the world." The next verse says, "And the world passeth away, and the lust thereof: but he that doeth the will of God abideth for ever."
The Apostle Paul wrote something in Romans 7 that I would say rings true for all of us:
"For we know that the law is spiritual: but I am carnal, sold under sin. For that which I do I allow not: for what I would, that do I not; but what I hate, that do I. If then I do that which I would not, I consent unto the law that it is good. Now then it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me. For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh,) dwelleth no good thing: for to will is present with me; but how to perform that which is good I find not. For the good that I would I do not: but the evil which I would not, that I do. Now if I do that I would not, it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me. I find then a law, that, when I would do good, evil is present with me. For I delight in the law of God after the inward man: but I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members. O wretched man that I am! who shall deliver me from the body of this death? I thank God through Jesus Christ our Lord. So then with the mind I myself serve the law of God: but with the flesh the law of sin." Vs. 14-25.
In other words, there is a war going on between what we know is right, and even wanting to do what is right, and what our sinful flesh wants to do. It is vital to come to know Jesus Christ as master of our lives, and have the indwelling of the Holy Spirit to help us through these battles. There is no other way to successfully overcome sin. But I do know the Lord as my personal Savior! So did Paul! So even more when we are Christians, we have this battle because we care, we want to please the Lord with our lives, and yet we still have the sinful flesh trying to be the winner.
We don't have to do this alone. Whatever the addiction, the first step is to see it for what it is, and to be honest with ourselves about our weakness. The heart of addiction is SIN. Beyond that, it is weakness to do the right thing that we know is good for us, and even for those we love. We know if we can overcome this, we will feel good about ourselves, and hey - even save money! We may restore relationships that our addictions threatened or harmed. We may live a longer life! We may not need to take meds.
Paul had a thorn in the flesh, and he prayed for victory from it. Jesus said to him in 2 Corinthians 12:9-10: "My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness." Then Paul responded, "Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong."
I don't know about you, but my issue isn't lack of knowledge. It's not for lack of praying. It's not for lack of desire. I start my day right on the right foot. It is when I come to the moment of temptation that I make a conscious choice. I own that! It is all on me. No one makes me make the choices I make except me. At that moment, yes or no comes up and that is the battle line. The war rages, and temptation is staring us in the face, and we have to choose.
My suggestion for all of us, and I will write updates on how I am doing with this, is to acknowledge first of all that our addiction is rooted in sin: the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life. We have a raging battle, and we need to do what we can in our lives to keep temptation away from us. With food, it is placing in front of us the right kind of food and setting limits. With alcohol or drugs, it may be parting ways with certain friends, avoiding certain places, and keeping the wrong substances out of the house (that works with food, too!). With pornography, it is perhaps getting rid of your computer all together or blocking certain websites. We need to set ourselves up for success because as long as we are here on earth, temptation will come. I tried telling my nurse practitioner that I'll try harder once all the picnics and family events are over. She quickly disagreed with me because she said there will ALWAYS be events coming up. We can't use that as an excuse. not to start now to do the right thing.
As a community, we can discourage the presence of alcohol at family fairs and festivals, and encourage restaurants not to serve alcohol and stores not to sell it. We can give our business to places that take a stand for what is right. We can create and open stores and restaurants and even hang outs that are safe spaces to keep those temptations away.
We often have positive associations with the things that addict us. It is instant gratification. We want it badly, and giving in makes us feel better right now! But does it last? Is there regret? See, things that are good for us will not give us that feeling of regret afterwards. We may associate drinking alcohol, for example, with the good feeling of being with family or friends, or being outdoors, or playing games with fun friends. We may associate the good feeling of vacation with having a beer, or mowing the lawn and rewarding self with a cold beer afterwards. But what was really nice was the time spent with those we enjoy being around, being off from work and going to a beautiful place! Having something cold to soothe us and rehydrate us after physical exertion. Sipping something comfortably while sitting and talking with a friend. Getting fresh air in the beautiful mountains! These things are the good things! Eating or drinking things that are healthy for us and not harming us can be done, and will even keep us from forgetting the fun times we had if having had alcohol that causes forgetfulness. No regrets! You will find that you still had a great time! You learned how to socialize and have a good time without drugging yourself.
Honesty with ourselves and our circumstances is essential to having the victory. We will have a battle, and we must win it - the rational good side, not the sinful flesh. May God bless you as you start each new day looking to Jesus and His Holy Spirit for strength and guidance. Stop when you get to that crossroad, and pray at that moment for strength. REPLACE the thing you crave so much with something you also like that is a better choice. And you know - I've learned our microbiome in our gut craves certain things! As we put good things in us, hopefully we will crave good things and crowd out the bad bacteria!